Throughout this year, I cried, I laughed, I was exhausted, I felt like giving up on everything and just ran away to a place where nobody knows me...From all the ups and downs, I realized, no matter how big a problem is or how stressful the situation seems to be, it will all be over as long as you hang in there.
And here I am, writing this post in 2015 as a proof that I have survived 2014! Yes, I'm still human!
Here's a recap of the big memories from 2014~
♠ The biggest change of 2014 was the fact that I have started to love the idea of having a housemate. I never thought that I would like having someone in the same house as me because I didn't have the confidence that I could live peacefully with someone when I have to face her for nearly 24/7 everyday in Melbourne. BUT....I now feel weird when my housemate was not at home. Company, now plays a very important role in my life. Although we don't have the same personality (in fact, it's pretty much the exact opposite, apart from our love for music - yet we have different taste in music HAH), we enjoyed the time searching for recipes from Google and trying them at home, exploring more Korean restaurants around Melbourne, watching crazy Youtube videos and laughing like mad during dinner time etc. Small little things which may not seem to be significant or special to the others, but in my eyes, for someone who had lived her life for 20 years with nobody at home apart from her mom, I would see that this is something that I did out of my absolute comfort zone. And yes, I love every bit of it, and thank you Bitch~ I shall bombard you with more higher-leveled bullshits in 2015.
♠ I also got a job at one of my favourite shops in Melbourne. I have been living in Melbourne for 3 years and whenever I pass by THAT shop I would tell the person who's shopping with me (or if I was alone, I would tell myself in my heart) "How nice would it be to be able to work in that cute little cafe). 3 years later, I'm working there. It's not a high paying job, but I love my colleagues and my bosses are not scary, so going to work is not dreadful for me. I actually enjoyed it most of the time apart from the moments when I had to deal with insanely unreasonable customers >< I also learn how to do simple decorations on cakes ^^
♠With my salary that I got from working part-time 3 or 4 times a week, I could finally have a taste of buying my own prize possessions with the money that I earned with my own fucking hands. Hell yeah, that feeling is good!!! For my first salary, I bought my mom a swarovski necklace and a pair of earrings for my grandmother. And I also got myself a pair of Converse - it has Bart Simpsons on it!!! WHEEEE~~ I also bought a lot of things which I could only dream of having since a few years ago such as headphones, polaroid camera etc.
♠I am now the treasurer of Melbourne University's Korean Society. Finally 1.5 years of hard work paid off~ I worked my ass off to get to where I wanted to be.
♠ It suddenly happened that I can now type a little Korean and I can understand quite a lot by hearing and reading. I am now starting to learn to have the courage to speak in Korean so that I can improve. Once in a while when there were Korean customers coming into the cafe, I would try to speak to them in Korean.
♠ I fell in love with B1A4. Thanks to the free tickets from my juniors. After being a K-Pop fan for 4 years with all my focus on CN Blue, now I have a new group to love! Jin Young is my 2nd love after Yong Hwa :p
♠ Saw Alex Goot and Chrissy at their concert in Melbourne.
♠ Went to Perth for the very first time with Mommy. That was a hella boring place
♠ After watching a very inspiring video by Wengie (click here), I finally start to gather up my courage to do something I like. Ever since I was a kid, I have always liked singing and dancing. However, as I get older (sad~), the time I spent on dancing had reduced drastically because of the other commitments I have in life, but my love for singing had been brought to an even higher level. Too bad I'm not born with an amazing vocal or having any extraordinary music talents (I do play guitar, ukulele and piano, but I'm not great in any of them...I really failed in life), if not I would have been pursuing music right now. But, Wengie's video inspired me to just do it and fumble along the way. Starting something is better than not doing anything about it, that's what she taught me. So, I started my new Youtube channel (CLICK HERE), learnt audio recording and editing. Everything was new and pretty time consuming, but I am enjoying every second whenever I'm doing my Youtube things.
♠ If you have a look at my 2014 resolution which I wrote back in 2013, #11 was to have a boyfriend (as I an idiot last year?), but now, this thing is not at all important in my life anymore. It would be a downright lie if I were to deny the fact that whenever I watch a Korean drama I wouldn't hope that I could find a guy who I can call my own, but for now, it's just not something which I shall include on my "resolutions of the year" list. I have learnt through a painful way that promises are just bullshits if they are not accompanied by actions in real life and sincerity. Thanks to you dude for this lesson and I'm so glad now that you are out of my life once and for all. Girls, nobody will treat you as a Queen, so why not be the Queen yourself!
♠ After years of blogging, finally I received a few sponsors. Although I'm no where near my amazing blogger friends, I was really happy and honoured to be able to be approached by companies who like my blog :3
♠ I also received a long e-mail from a reader for the first time. Charmaine, I am not sure whether you are reading this (I suppose with my crazy personality I would direct you here to read this) but I am really really really happy and proud of you to be able to finally to gather your courage to leave home for New Zealand. Do you know that when I was typing the reply for you, I was so incredibly touched? I was actually crying when I replied you *blush* I never thought that someone would actually ask me advice for such a big decision in life. Thank you for believing in me and not thinking that I was just bullshitting HAHA
♠ Became real life good friends with a blogger - Vincci. I even asked her to come to my house for sleepover party and made her do my dishes WTF (well, I did cook lunch for her though)
♠ I am now someone's god mother :p HAHA! My godsister Daphne Froggy (who I knew through blogging too) gave birth to a very cute little boy!!! I am his god mother!
♠ The desire and rebellious intention of getting a tattoo is now out of my life already. I had been wanting a small but meaningful tattoo since I was 12 years old, but that day when I was working I saw a couple of tattooed old ladies came into the shop with some faded tattoos....I realized, I wouldn't want one anymore.
♠ Cut my hair in Melbourne for the very first time at a Korean hair saloon. Cost me freaking 35 dollars~
♠ Sent off a few seniors who went back to their countries for good. Come to think of it, I'm on my way to finishing my university life...That's why saying goodbyes is unavoidable as well :(
Bye 2014...You made me cry and laugh..I had a love-hate relationship with you but most of all, I am grateful for everything that you had contributed to make me a better person over a year.
THANK YOU *bows*
2015, be a really good one will ya~
As if this blog post is not long enough...Now I'm going to list out my 2015 resolutions :p
Although there were quite a lot of things that I didn't complete back in 2014, in 2015, hopefully I will be able to finish them :p
#1 MUST FREAKING GRADUATE THIS YEAR
#2 Save 2000 AUD at least
#3 Be fluent in Korean - at least can read and understand most of the things
#4 Write down To-Do things in my Molang Diary every day
#5 Write down the memorable things that is going to happen in my 2015 in the diary given by Chanwon - hopefully it will be really interesting when I were to read back at the end of this year & jot down 1 thing that I am grateful for daily in the diary ;)
#6 Exercise at least once a week
#7 Blog at least once a week
#8 Upload 1 Youtube every fortnight
#9 Be a vegetarian at least once a month
#10 Get better at managing my time
#11 No leaving assignments or important tasks till the last fucking minute
#12 No more losing my tutorial sheets or lecture notes (get a huge notebook)
OMG, I'm graduating in less than a year!!!
☮ Quote to share:
We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, it is to create something that will